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[Sep. 29th, 2009|01:47 am] |
Well, school is good. I miss the shit out of Massachusetts, but, I'm making the best of it. Although, it IS nice to be in a new town, new school, meet NEW people, make new friends, and just experience a whole 'nother atmosphere in general. I go to my mom's house every other weekend or so. My heart will always be in Mass, no matter what state I'm in. I even miss my stupid little hometown. But, I also miss just being a kid so, go figure.
But anyways. I went home last weekend and ran into Jeff. Wow, Jeff. I didn't know what to do with myself. Seeing him was so weird. I had so many mixed feelings. I was mad, sad, happy, excited, furious; I wanted to scream in his face, I wanted to jump into his arms and give him a million kisses, I wanted to break down in tears but what did I do? I smiled and gave him a hug. I miss the shit out of him, I really do. For a while, I thought I just missed having a significant other but I realized that I just miss him and US. He was a good boyfriend before the downfall and I wanted to marry him. He's coming here on Friday and then he's bringing me back to Mass on Saturday and my little brother is going to drive me back here on Sunday. We'll see how it goes. I wish we could just erase everything and be together again but I don't think it'll ever happen. We'll never be Summer & Jeff again. I'm always going to love him but I'm okay with that.
Speaking of little brothers (except, I wasn't), today, Erik got quarentined from Boston College for having the flu. Haha! Aw, poor kid. I'm surprised he didn't go to UMass. I wanted him to be like his sister :). Just kidding. He's a good kid, and I miss that little fucker.
I don't know if I want to dance anymore. My knee is fucking up. I might change my major. Which would mean more years of school.. GREAT! Just my luck. Well, I'm thankful my parents support my brothers and I in everything, and most importantly, I'm so thankful they pushed all 3 of us so hard to finish school but I know they would accept us dropping out if we did. Although, Erik & I wouldn't drop out and Kev's out of school.
I'm done. No one cares, hah. GOODNIGHT! |
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[Jul. 28th, 2009|12:15 am] |
This summer is so busy, so I'll leave you with pictures.
( Oh, snap! )
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[Sep. 21st, 2008|06:28 pm] |
I drank wayyyy too much this weekend and now I'm finally hungover. Yesterday morning, we just kept drinking so we wouldn't be hungover and this morning.... well, alcohol isn't cheap and we do need food, gas, rent, ect.
I'm so single and okay with it. It's good :) |
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[Jan. 18th, 2008|11:17 pm] |
I'm so mad at Jeff. He was ridiculously drunk tonight, and I'm too irritated with him to deal with it. We saw I Am Legend for the 3rd time and then went to Anthony's crib to chill and drink. He was like "baby, I'll be right back" and leaves with Dickie and 3 other kids for about an hour. Comes back cocked out of his mind. He tried to sit down and he slowly slipped and literally bashed his head on a brick wall. I'm so surprised it didn't bleed. Then he was being an asshole to everyone, me especially. So I asked Ryan and Sam to take care of him and they said they would so I left. I'm not mad that he was drunk or anything, I'm mad that was so drunk, he was being obnoxious and rude. I didn't do shit to him and this is the second time I've seen him in a fucking week.
But he'll probably call me at like 3am asking me to pick him up, or he'll wake up tomorrow with the worst hangover feeling like a complete idiot. BUT until then... |
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[Jan. 14th, 2008|01:51 pm] |
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everyone loves reading my old entries and its so stupid because I was annoying as fuck. Christa, I hate you :( oh and I should probably go to the hospital soon cause I sneezed blood a couple times yesterday and then I threw up some blood. anyways. I swear I'm gonna delete this :| or put my stupid entries on private. |
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[Dec. 9th, 2007|12:06 am] |
Never have I felt so disappointed in someone that meant so much to me. Never have I been so mad at someone that I love so much.
Last night, Jeff was drunk and he drove. He crashed into a tree, which I suppose was the only good thing about it. We got into the biggest fight we've ever had. Mainly, because he knows how I feel about drinking & driving. That's why I always tell him to call me if he's too drunk - no matter if I'm mad at him or if it's 3am. I'll fucking be there if he needs me. Mad because not only was he endangering his life, but he was endangering the lives of others. I'm not mad about it anymore, I'm disappointed in his actions.
Perhaps I'm just being a big puss about all of this, but it hurts to know my own boyfriend would make such a stupid choice. What if he had died last night? What if. Fucking hate that he thought of himself; how selfish is that? I don't know what I would do without him, he's my everything.
Atleast we're talking things over now. |
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[Nov. 26th, 2007|06:16 pm] |
So Jeff and I had our 1 year; it was good. He woke me up with breakfast in bed and then he took me the tree in the park where he asked me out. He bought me roses, chocolate, and ice cream. My 3 favorite things. He took me ice skating and out to dinner in Athol. It was amazing and I was beyond happy.. seriously. Too bad we've been fighting over the DUMBEST shit lately. Pretty much the most unnecessary fights ever. We talked today during my lunch break and he brought me a leaf in the shape of a heart. So we're good right now. I love him so much and I dunno what I would do without him; how cheesy does that sound?
I heard about some girls in Sutton getting into a car accident on Saturday. She died at the age of 17; that's gotta be hard as fuck on her family and friends. I know if Jenna or Ryan died.. my whole world would crumble. I'd be a mess.
Speaking of best friends... Jenna is staying up all night to work on 3 papers so I bought 4 cases of Red Bull for each of us. I'm gonna stay up all night with her because it sucks staying up by yourself.
Trust & believe. |
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[Nov. 3rd, 2007|06:00 pm] |
We're good =)
Bleh, I had a fever of 103 earlier and I had to run the store cause my mom had to do some shit out of town. Being sick sucks, and mono sucks even more. |
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[Nov. 2nd, 2007|11:01 pm] |
Jeff and I got into a fight tonight. He was drunk and I'm sick and aggravated. Some guy was getting on his nerves and he was about to hit him so I grabbed his arm and told him the guy wasn't worth it. He was like "get the fuck away from me."
......... I hope he sleeps over like he usually does. I dunno, though. I told Ryan to tell him to call me when he gets a chance. Even though I'm so exhausted and sick (I might have mono.. again), I can't sleep until I know we're okay. I mean, I know we're okay but as long as he knows that I still love him, I'll be alright.
Blech, I dunno know why I even went out tonight. I literally feel like death.
Goodnight :| |
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[Oct. 12th, 2007|06:17 pm] |
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So Jeff told me that he would be in Boston for 3 days... and he surprised me with a Boston shirt, flowers, and a card AND he was only there for 2 days. He wanted to surprise me and he did :)
I'm picking him up in a little bit and we're gonna go to my little brother's football game and then I think we're going out after that to a bar or something. (Yeah, a bar - there's one here called McMurphy's, my dad's friend owns it and lets me and my friends get in as long as we pay for the drinks if we get one :D)
mm, yeah. it's gonna be really cold tonight so maybe I'll cuddle up with Jeff if he wants to instead of going out. who knows.
Gottttttt paid today.
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